PAYING TO PLAY
OSU linebacker John Kerr gave up a scholarship to fulfill his dream
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Ken Gordon
THE COLUMBUS DISPATCH
Ohio State linebacker John Kerr is as chivalrous as the next guy, but it may not have seemed like it for the past three years.
He has been paying his way through school since transferring from Indiana after the 2002 season. That has meant sacrifice and some humbling moments.
"My girlfriend has paid for a lot of meals for us for a long time," Kerr said. "Little things, like (teammates asking), ‘Hey, let’s go out to eat,’ or, ‘Let’s go to Easton.’ "I can’t. It’s a tough thing, but it’s worth it."
He says that without hesitation. He believes that the lessons he has learned and the character he has developed make it so.
To the average nonscholarship student, it might not sound like hardship. Millions of people have done what Kerr is doing: cobble together tuition and living expenses through savings, parents, loans and jobs.
It’s just that big-time college football players normally don’t sweat that stuff. They aren’t paid a salary, but as Kerr said, , "When you get a $1,200 scholarship check every month, you don’t have to worry about finances. You can blow money and still have money left."
And to think Kerr actually chose this road. When he left Indiana, he knew that staying within the Big Ten meant giving up his scholarship.
But his family had always been big Ohio State fans. So even though Kerr was not heavily recruited out of Cleveland St. Ignatius High School by the Buckeyes (they already had some pretty fair linebackers), going to OSU was a natural.
He had to sit out 2003 as a normal transfer year, then was relegated to scout-team duty in 2004 because of problems with transfer-related paperwork.
Last year, he played mostly on special teams and only sparingly on defense behind A.J. Hawk, Bobby Carpenter and Anthony Schlegel.
It was three years of purga- tory. And it was even tougher on Kerr because he had been a star in high school and at Indiana, leading the Hoosiers in tackles in 2002.
"It was a little bit of a humbling experience," Bill Kerr, John’s father, said. "It has changed him a little bit that way. He had the opportunity to build a lot of character."
John said, "You don’t appreciate it as much (when on scholarship). When I was at Indiana and I didn’t have to pay for anything, you don’t appreciate it at the same level. When you start working every single day just so you can have a roof over your head and open a book so you can be eligible, it builds character, perseverance, persistence.
"And you just realize, ‘Hey, life’s hard.’ A lot of guys don’t get that in college when they get their college paid for."
Sitting out is one thing. But being a nonscholarship player means not eating at the team training tables. And it meant getting a job.
Kerr has worked parking cars at Hyde Park Grille and pouring concrete for road projects around the city.
"I had to grow up," he said. "When you’re actually paying your own way, things get serious. You take the leap from being a child to manhood. It was scary at first when you don’t have that scholarship check and I couldn’t say, ‘Hey, Dad, I need cash.’
"When those two avenues are gone and you need cash, the only thing you can do is look in the mirror. You grow up quicker."
Defensive coordinator Jim Heacock admires Kerr not only for the persistence of paying his own way but for not getting down despite not playing for most of the past three years.
"It had to be real hard on him," Heacock said. "But he never lost his focus on what he was trying to get done. He’s always upbeat and has a great attitude."
Finally, Kerr should get a chance to play this season. With all three 2005 starters gone, Kerr is penciled in as the starting middle linebacker. He will turn 25 in September.
Heacock said the plan is to have a seven-man rotation for three spots but that seniority gives Kerr an edge.
To say Kerr is ready is an understatement. This fall is his last season, and the years of living on the financial edge have sharpened his focus.
"When you realize, hey, I’ve dropped 60,000 bucks to fulfill a dream, you never go halfway, never take the easy way out," he said. "I don’t want to waste that investment."
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