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COLLEGE FOOTBALL "When people hear Ray is on our team, they're going to ask questions. But I said to Ray, I'm here to help young men, including young men who have made mistakes.' "Tom Amstutz,Toledo head coach
Walk-on Williams running to stand still
Sunday, April 30, 2006Elton Alexander
Plain Dealer Reporter
Toledo -- It was a Friday, colder and grayer than it ought to be for April. It felt more like late October, which was fine for Ray Williams. It is a time of year he is battling to get back to.
The All-Ohio tailback from Benedictine High was the state's Mr. Football in 2003 and accepted a football scholarship to West Virginia. Now he is a walk-on for the University of Toledo Rockets, as he attempts to put a troubled past behind him.
Williams is trying to meet the sympathetic ruling of a judge, Shirley Strickland Saffold, with his own ambitions to play football again. Instead of sitting in prison for involuntary manslaughter and attempted robbery, Williams remains free on five years' probation, as long as he attends college and maintains a C average.
On April 16, 2004, Williams and Benedictine teammate Jon Huddleston survived the night they and a third teammate, Lorenzo Hunter, attempted to rob a known drug dealer with a fake gun. The dealer had a real gun and killed Hunter, while Williams and Huddleston ran from the crime. Huddleston received the same sentence as Williams and is on the football team at North Carolina Central.
Toledo isn't prison, but that's what hangs over Williams without an overall 2.0 grade-point average. Making the football team could make time fly by. If he fails academically, he could be sentenced to three years in prison.
After Saffold read her sentence, Williams told the court: "If I don't play another down, I won't be mad."
That was over a year ago. Now, Williams says, playing football again is what truly drives him.
"I don't know where that came from," Williams said of his statement in court.
The situation in Toledo is delicate for all involved as Williams starts his journey back.
"I've been accepted," he said. "A lot of people know my personal history. Being up here is almost like being at home, just away from all the crazy stuff."
Yet a cloud still hangs over him, as does the coach who wants to help him get on with life while wearing a scarlet letter. Toledo's Tom Amstutz has taken it as a personal challenge to get Williams back on the right path.
"When people hear Ray is on our team, they're going to ask questions," Amstutz said. "But I said to Ray, I'm here to help young men, including young men who have made mistakes.'
"If they can come in my program, my family, and do things the right way, and I can help them develop as young men, that's my No. 1 priority. I want my guys to become better citizens than when they first got here; I want them to grow in all areas of their lives."
A crime resulting in death has a finality about it that seems to demand tougher justice and less forgiveness, so Amstutz has heard his share of critics for letting Williams on the team.
"I expected some, but maybe not quite this much," Amstutz said. "That doesn't bother me. I'm willing to step up and help the young man. That's why I coach.
"And it's just not because Ray is a good football player. I have my hands in all areas of his life. I have people even going with him to church. I'm with Ray. I want to help his life. But he's not going to be, all of a sudden, on the team."
While the team practiced four days a week this spring, Williams went only to two -- Friday and Saturday -- for academic reasons. Some weeks there were no Saturday practices, so Williams was down to just a day. Williams is not on the team roster. He has no jersey number.
Williams is just completing his first calendar year at UT and is cleared by the NCAA to practice. But to play this fall, he can't fall back academically.
"I'm gradually working him into our program, as long as he continues to do the right things," Amstutz said. "He could play this fall, based on how he's doing in the classroom, off the field, and with our football family. And right now, he's doing very well."
Amstutz said this after that chilly Friday practice where the 5-11, 192-pound back looked fine catching the ball but pedestrian running it. Plays where Williams struggled to get 3 and 4 yards a crack became a three-play touchdown drive anchored by a 35-yard TD run when Williams' bigger, stronger walk-on replacement gave him a breather.
Yet with Ray Williams, history has shown a lot can change in an instant. On April 14, Williams was the highlight of Toledo's spring scrimmage with a performance anchored by a jitterbug 20-yard run.
So he forges on. Williams said his parents are paying for his school and off-campus apartment. He and Shaw product Scooter McDougle, an All-Mid-American Conference running back who has become his mentor, might share an apartment this summer.
It all seems like a 12-step program, one day at a time.
"I go to school, go to class, go home," he said. "You're tired by that time, you don't want to come back on campus. I'm probably 5 to 10 minutes away, but it's not walking distance."
He doesn't want it to be close. Where others may see the traditional college picture of dorm life, nearby frat houses, pizza pubs and the like, Williams sees what he wants no part of.
"You stay out of trouble staying off campus," Williams said. "Too much stuff to get into staying on-campus, a lot of drama going on around campus. Stuff happens, stuff comes up missing . . . you're in the wrong place at the wrong time, now you've got a problem."
Those around him are trying to chart a course for a happy ending.
"He's doing pretty good, holding up pretty well," said the 6-1, 235-pound McDougle, who is getting himself back in shape after injuring a knee in the 2004 MAC Championship and missing all of last season.
"Everybody comes up to me and asks about him," McDougle said. "I told them I knew him from way back. We were supposed to play together at Shaw, but I got my transfer [from Villa Angela-St. Joseph High], and he didn't [from Benedictine]. Because I knew him before, I was always going to look out for him."
Short of a medical setback, McDougle is destined to be on the field for UT when the leaves start changing. Williams? Only time will tell.
"I see myself playing this fall," Williams said. "Doing something, special teams, something."
Even then, it will be a start, not the end.